Hope you enjoyed your weekend - I know mine was way too short. They always seem to be, though, so that's not too much of a surprise.
Today I wanted to share something with you all , and that is my uncanny ability to push myself too hard. I've always felt like I should be able to do anything, and I should be able to do it by myself. When things don't happen this way, I often get frustrated and discouraged.
For me, one of the hardest parts about being pregnant has been learning that I am not, in fact, invincible. I am fragile, and I am carrying a very special life inside of me. I think, over the past week, I have had to learn this the hard way.
I worked out on Wednesday, and it was great, but it was hard. I couldn't run or jump like I could before, and you'd be amazed how much of a difference these extra 7 lbs have made. It's hard for me to catch my breath, and I have to slow it down to keep my heart rate in the "safe" range.
Saturday, I decided to spend the day painting, putting up the Christmas decorations, and rearranging our living room. I did all of this just like I would If I wasn't pregnant. No big deal, right? Wrong. I spent all day yesterday nursing the back pain that resulted from those activities
I learned the hard way that I am not invincible. I'm not 100% right now, and as a perfectionist, that bothers me. It bothers me when I realize that my hips no longer fit in my pants, and it bothers me when I look in the mirror and see a face covered in pimples. I'm bothered when I realize that, for the time being, my body isn't mine.
You know what, though? I've realized that it's okay to be human, and that these changes occurring in my body are not just okay, they are a miracle. In a little over five months, I will be holding that miracle in my arms, and I have the feeling that I will look at that little baby with tears in my eyes and feel invincible once again.
Okay, so this is actually my nephew, but you get the idea.
On a completely unrelated note... Does anyone know where I can print my custom Christmas cards?? I made ours for this year, and I just want to find somewhere that will print them for a reasonable price. :)