Monday, February 17, 2014

Random.

I feel this overwhelming urge to write, but the problem is... nothing comes to mind. So... I guess this post is just going to be a jumble of the thoughts that are currently rolling around in my head.

- This past week, two people from my graduating class have died. One was murdered (he was in the wrong place at the wrong time - sad story, really) and one was killed in an ATV accident. I wasn't particularly close with either of them, but it still hit close to home. These guys were 25 - far too young, in my opinion. One had just gotten married last August. It's such a sad story, and what's even worse is that these are not the only people from my class who have died.

- I'm really, really thirsty.

- I don't want to go back to school in the fall and I don't think I'm going to. Don't get me wrong, I love teaching more than anything. HOWEVER, the program I'm currently in is a dual major master's program, with master's degrees in German and Education. I am not a fan of taking a bunch of German lit classes and writing 60 pages for said classes (auf deutsch, natürlich). I'd much rather stay home with Elsie and focus on photography, which has become a real passion. I'd still like to get my teaching certificate, but I've decided that (right now) the master's programs just aren't for me. I thought I belonged in the world of academia, but it turns out... I don't. Not at this point in my life, anyway.

- On that note, it is so much more refreshing to do things because I want to, not because someone else is telling me to. Life is way too short to be living to please other people.

- I feel like this post needs a picture, but I don't have one and I'm too lazy to look for one.

15 comments:

rooth said...

Sometimes there's no time for elegance and you just want to jot it all down. Let's call it notetaking for your memoirs

Dorothy Explora said...

WOW! SO! (lols) i just spent the last our or so going through your blog ;P WTHeck!? i go MIA for a while and YOU HAVE A BABY on me!?

Congratulations, mama! how very exciting!

dorothy
http://theymaysaythatimadreamer.blogspot.com

Kaity said...

I like what you said about your Master's. I still feel embarrassed about the fact that I dropped out of grad school even though I know it was for the best. I got the job I wanted without it, and didn't add to my mountain of student loan debt. Your Masters' will be there waiting for you when the timing is right- at least that's what I keep telling myself ;)

Brittany said...

The nice thing about school is that you can always go back to it if you want but being home more with Elsie, you'll never get those moments back. So very exciting for you :)

Kassi Mortensen said...

Being able to stay home with Klara is the best!! If you really feel that's what is right for you, I highly recommend it!

Krysten Gautreaux said...

I have a really hard time when young people die. It's just hard for me to grasp, you know. Like, "Wow, I'm older than them and they just died. Life over. No more." It's a weird thought. It makes you feel very small. And it's hard not to hurt for everything and everyone they left behind.

Whitney Leigh said...

ugggh going back to school right now s the bane of my existence. I'd only be doing it for my parents, but I feel like I need to go in another direction I just don't know where yet. I agree, things like that should be done for yourself, not for someone else.

Lourdes said...

Yeah that happened to me after I got my masters. i said no to PhD even if I passed and was qualified to go on!

Make the decision for yourself!

Xo Lourdes

Dearest Lou said...

Glad to hear that you will be focusing more on Elsie and your photography. I completely agree that life is too short not to focus on things you are actually passionate about. There is always plenty of time to go back and finish your education if you WANT to (;

Irina said...

Probably, German is not yor kind of thing? Like Cecily's in "The Importance of Being Earnest", remember? She said: I hate German! I rnow I look quite plain after German lessons.))) Well, if you went to Austria, you might change your attitude and be inspired by this language.
Where I would totally agree is that your daughter is top priority and joy. Have fun! And when you have enough, you'll want to come back to school.

Elsha said...

I agree 100%

Do what is best for you and your family. The end :)

ifs ands Butts said...

I can't imagine how tough it's been doing a Masters and raising Elsie. You know what's best!

cynthia said...

It's great you have the option not to go back. I wish I didn't have to go back to work after 3 months! You are so young, you can always get back to school in a few years (if you wanted to). Enjoy the time now!! :)

Sarah Shumate said...

I know exactly how you feel about the school thing. Lexie was two months old when I started college, so I had a baby/toddler my entire 4.5 years of college. It nearly killed me trying to keep up with both mommying and my education! Good for you for deciding what was right for YOU!

Nikki said...

You're blogging and vlogging again - yay! I am trying to write again and really wish I could just get back into it. Slowly but surely...anyway I totally understand what you mean about the masters. I remember writing those papers about Thomas Mann and whatever but not really being into it and 4 years later, I don't even remember that much about it. Enjoy your time with your cutie little Elsie!

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